Archive for February, 2008

Well

{ February 24, 2008 @ 6:31 pm } · { family }
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So I spent the night with my cousin last night, and it was all good until we started tearing into eachother. I would agree that we both said thing that we will regret, or i know i will, i dont even know if she has a conscience sometimes. Well my family and i dont have heat in our house at the moment, and she admitted taht the only reason that she brings be down to her house is because she has heat. I know that she is just tring to be nice but that really hurt, it told me that she doesnt even want to spend time with me, she just puts up with me because we dont have heat, but then when i want to go home she throws a fit and says she is going to be bored because no one is going to be there with her. I want to know what she is going to do when i’m gone to alaska, or where ever we are going.  I have to admit that i probably wont miss her as much as she will miss me, and im not sorry.  She is going off to job corps to be a chef, and she is probably going to quit when she gets mad or someone makes her cry, then she is going to be mad because she quit, and im not going to be here.  I tore into her about her quiting when things got hard and how she always runs home to mom or me.  We got into it about how our lives were worse then the others and i knew neither of us were going to win, because we were going to try and one up each other again and again. Well we changed the subject and went to be around one thirty, after we played cards.

Well i guess since im done ranting and raving for a few moments. thanks for reading and besafe.

Becka Elyse <3

Moving Part II

{ February 21, 2008 @ 3:16 am } · { family, love, moving }
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Ok well my Bro-in-law Jeremy took his test today for the FAA (Federal Airanotics Assosiation) or how ever you spell it, and he did really well. We found out that our moving scedule has been moved up to about the end of summer. After the Monday that i had i would welcome a move right now. Then again there is a boy on my facebook that im really into, i just doubt that he would like me, a) because im me and i dont think anyone could really love me outside of my family, and b) he is a football player and im a geek, i mean come on, im a fat geek, even nobody at school likes me, but maybe he does. we made plans for us to go to the museum in cincy, which we would get to do no matter what, but i dont want to meet him, really learn to love him and then have to move. yes i konw that was one huge run on sentance. Well congrats Bub, and this is it for moving part II. Keep watching for moving part III.  Thanks for reading and be safe.

prince Charming???

{ February 18, 2008 @ 1:01 pm } · { love }
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OK.  So I had a dream last night, and it made me realize that there aren’t many prince Charming’s in this world any more. You all know the kind of man I’m talking about, the one where he is OK kissing you on the forehead, will bring you roses for no reason, and if you don’t like roses the your favorite flower. Is it silly to want one of those romanticises that are in the movies? Is it silly to want the man in your life whose arms you fit into perfectly? Apparently it is, because i don’t see any prince charming coming to sweep me off my feet. Maybe I just haven’t met him yet. But my question is, is there one out there for everyone?

I have been in relationships where its only me giving, or where the only physical/no sexually contact we have is where he is hitting me. I mean come on, i know there are a lot of stories worse then mine, but if i don’t deserve a prince charming, then i hope all the women out there who have had it worse then me get lots of them because i think they would make everything betterjust by holding you in his arms and kissing you on the forehead.

 Ok this has been my rant on price charming for a while atleast.

Thanks for reading and be safe.

What is up with the rating thing on websites

{ February 18, 2008 @ 12:44 am } · { random }
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Ok, so im on myyearbook and almost all the subjects of my bulletins are rate me and ill rate you, all it does is demean people. I think its wrong, but if they really care what people think of them they need some serious help, i mean come on, its more important that you think you look pretty then some some self inflated beauty queen with an attitude.

My cousin

{ February 17, 2008 @ 8:46 pm } · { family }
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My cousin just sent me a text message, she left her house agian, she is tired of being treated like shit by her step dad, and her mom isnt doing anything about it. She is a lesbian, and i dont have a problem with it, my only problem with her is that she tries to get me to be gay, or atleast bi, and im not that way, she just doesnt get it. We have kinda been on bad terms with each other since the last time she tried to get me to ride the fence, and i dont want to hurt her feelings but im just not that way. She may be trying to move in here, and she wants to move with us when we move to alaska. I think im gonna lose it if she moves in here. omg. *sigh*

Guys

{ February 17, 2008 @ 8:13 pm } · { love }
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Well. There is this guy in my school who i used to tutor, he is really sweet, kind, and cute. I recently asked him out, he said that he didnt know because he was a bad boyfriend, and i think that he is trying to let me down easy. I think i have come to terms with that. Then there is this other guy in my precal class, he is a football player. They both happen to share the same name, and they both know that i like them. I dont really think that either one of them like me.

So there is another guy in Cincy, and for anyone that doesnt know where cincy is, it is cincinati. He is really sweet, we talk alot, yes it may just be through email, but he said that we should chill sometime, and i really want to. i thnk im gonna meet him at the rembhrant exibit in the cincy museam, but i havent run it by him yet. i was thinking that my family was going any way, and that way it would be in public, so no danger. he would also be close so yeah.  And he may just want to be friends. (the story of my life) I am the girl who is ok to be friends with but not ok to date.

So between the two rays and the bilal, im guy crazy, and im ok with that statment. A while back i was about to give up on love and maybe join a convent, although im not catholic.

Guys havent always treated me the right way, so i dotn really trust them, i know i need to work on it. well i guess i gotta go. until next time, thanks for reading, and be safe.

I don’t think so

{ February 17, 2008 @ 3:00 pm } · { moving }
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Ok.

I recently found out that i may be moving.  Not just moving down the street or to another county, but to another state…. across the country.

I currently live in podonk Kentucky, and more then likly will be moving to Alaska, and that doesnt really bother me. its the part were they dont know if we will be moving to Alaska or to Colorado. I told them that if we move that i want to move far away, and yes Colorado is far away, but i ment i dont want to be close enough to actually want to come back.

I love the idea of moving to Alaska, its cold and theres snow almost year around, whats not to love? I mean come on, it reached like 110 this summer here, in the summer up there is maybe 60, its perfect. For those over seas or maybe in canada, it was ferinhigt not celius.

I would be leaving behind my friends, and i know thats the typical teenagers response, but i would also be leaving my grandfather’s grave. yes that sounds kinda weird, but my grandfather means alot to me, he died when i was five, and you might say i was to young, but its just who i am. He spoiled me rotten, and i remember alot.

They said that we would come back for emergiancies, furnerals, and occasionaly just for fun. But i have lived in kentucky my whole life.  Yes i’ve moved several times but not such a derastic move.

But I guess i dont have a choice in the matter. I’ll move anywhere they want me to, until i go to college, which is alittle over a year.

thanks for reading, until next time.

Becka