ok, so im seriously about to lose my mind, while in 6th period. im on the schools moble lab, and the computers are really cool. anyway, this day has been one of the worst days of my life, ahhhhh ahhh. im wearing a skirt, which is important because i never wear skirts or anything girly, so i feel really exposed, omg. my day has just started out terrible, i woke up this morning and my mom and i kinda didnt get along, but for the most part we did, she said that i couldnt have a friend over this weekend, and i dont have many more days left with these friends, so i dont know what to do. i got to school and the guy who i really like but i probably shouldnt, was of course flirting with me and he doesnt like me but he just wants something i dont want to give him, or he wont really get it from anyone. he was just being stupid, and i told him he was all talk, and i was getting tired of him saying things with out action, and he backed off. ray, another guy, has this girl flirting with him all the time and he doesnt want to go out with her, but i do and he doesnt like me either. tomorrow is the derby and i have to wear a dress, talk about being more exposed.
i just wanna cry really bad. i left mr. hunter a card saying thank you for teaching me, and that i wouldnt be in there when i was a senior, and he didnt say anything about that, which i am greatful for. i didnt get my solfege done and he said that unfortunate, omg, thats unfortunate, i swear, he makes me hate music so much, and then he insults me but i cant help but be nice to the man, help me understand, please.
so that brings me to now, im helping my peer tutor, which is just slacking, he can do so much better, ive seen him do better, but he refuses, and i just dont get it, then he gets mad when i dont do his work for him. ahhhh, he is driving me nuts, but i have patiance. i have patiance, i have patiance. i wanna go home.
i will probably be in the library next period, working on my editoral in english. i will be happy to have something to do, besides for just looking at the wall. well the bell is gonna ring soon, i might get on tonight and write some more, and by the way my mom got the job in katchacan, and so did my step dad.
until next time, keep reading and be safe.
Becka Elyse
